I’m just going to be a supporting teammate instead of hating on my coaches decisions. Just two more month and it’ll all be over.
you know what scares me? College. Not solely the “going to college” part but the process I must go through in order to arrive there. And knowing that there’s so much expected of me makes me doubt myself and capabilities to achieve and makes me ask myself do I even have the merit or the brain to surpass that expectation… It’s is a pressure no one should ever have to be put under. What scares me is the fact that your whole life will be based on the first word you will read once you get that acceptance letter. Either it’s “CONGRATULATIONS” or “Sorry…” are the words you have worked four long, tedious, sweat-breaking years for. And to me those are the words that will dictate the path that you’re supposed to be on. Right now I’m emotionally and mentally uncertain on what I must and need to do at this moment for me to be congratulated by a university, one that sees me for me and work I’ve achieved or even failed so far, but still say “I believe in this girl.”
I’m a mess right now
we have to remember that nothing worth having comes easy. So we must push through and maybe even fail to remind ourself that if you give it one more push maybe you’ll get it this time.